My consciousness is not participating in this surgery. Yet the human consciousness is forced to endure surgery on our material lives. Tissue is cut and pulled away. Tubes inserted into one area of life to resuscitate another. The fabric of our world is cut, torn, bruised, stretched and patched back together every day, without anesthesia.
Cutting and excising tumors from the material world is subconsciously painful. This pain creeps into our daily lives as disappointment, fear, sadness, lonlieness, anxiety and depression. This is the pain humans must endure in the material world.
This is why approximately 1 out of 200 girls between the ages of 13 and 19 years old cut themselves. There is no physical release when our material world is sliced. We internalize the pain of daily life and when it gets too big, we cut it out. Sadly, these tumors cannot be physically extracted; instead, they are symbolically cut out.
Cutters get relief from the physical act of cutting because they are manifesting the symbolic nature of the pain. When tears don’t work, they let it out through their blood. When our material world is cut there is no uniform method to release the pain. We must manifest the pain into something tangible and therefore less frightening than the unkown.
No, don’t take me out yet, I want to stay here a little longer. Please, I am not ready to leave. It’s… so… soft… in here. Why is he yelling my name so loudly? Yes, yes, I can hear you. Why are the lights so bright? What the hell is that in my throat? Get it out!
I am conscious and I am in pain.
We enter consciousness screaming through the front door of birth and gently slip out the back door of death. Unconsciousness is the natural state of the human spirit. It is where we came from and it is where we are going.
Consciousness is pain. We learn as we go. Our ears become mute to the noise. Our eyes, dull to the light. The brightness of the Experience is dimmed.
“As a single footstep will not make a path on the earth, so a single thought will not make a pathway in the mind. To make a deep physical path, we walk again and again. To make a deep mental path, we must think over and over the kind of thoughts we wish to dominate our lives.”—Henry David Thoreau